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I read my horoscope in today's Straits Times Lifestyle section, like I do every other day, but today the stars told me I should 'wind down' and relax HAHA I don't rmb the exact phrasing but that was what it meant in essence, and so being my superstitious better-safe-than-sorry self, I am gonna be relaxing a little today (:

It's a gloomy, rainy Sunday - it's paradoxical to the extent of depressing and unnatural.

Aren't Sundays those bright, cheery, SUNny days which mark a beautiful end to a shitty week? Why are the skies raining down on us like this? Why are those cululonimbus clouds blocking out the sun's golden, radiant rays from humanity? WHY WHY WHY!

An optimist would go, OH this isn't a depressing thing. The heavens are washing out the week's evils and sins, so tmr will be a better, brighter and more beautiful day.

When will we stop lying to ourselves? How long more are we going to continue to pretend we're alright?

Why can't we just accept the state we're in, find a way around this mess, and move on from here, albeit being terribly shaken? Have we all lost our willpower and courage?

Sheer grit and determination; it's time to rise to the challenge (:

Okay so anyw, tmr's teachers' day and I think i'll be going back to RV/Fuhua if time permits (: Really excited to be seeing everyone again (: After tt going beebee's house to eat nuggets/mug with 6V (:

Looking out at the rain with a heavy heart, it's the end of the world in my mind..

Mmmmmmmmm. (: Right, I'm gonna go for a social gathering now! (: Social gatherings can't be upside-down unless there's monogamy! (HAHAHAHA if you have no idea what im talking abt you obviously haven't read markcheng's stellar and uproariously hilarious post, go check it out at senza-misura.blogspot.com)

cyaaaaa dears (:

A quiet morning at home gave me time to think and reflect, (and totally to catch up on lost sleep) and I'm really glad.

I thought about so many things I got lost in my thoughts amidst thinking; is that even possible?

I'm really thankful for everyone who's been there for me, 6V, Faccomm, my lovely family; thankyou esp to 6V and FC for all those really sweet words of encouragement hahahaha, I love yall very much (((((:

Terribly apologetic to Leon for missing our *date* haha to Orchard Central today. I think you shld be pretty upset with me, if I were you I'd be angry at myself too, promise people but never deliver them. I'm sorry, I didn't know I'd been missing sch to sleep in till pretty late last night. Will make it up to you if you give me the chance though (: Been working on ur present today! (: MARKCHENG HELPPP MEEEEE next wk(:

Thank God for everyone, and press on da jia ((:

Ohhhhh if you're still not yet in the know, the 7th Lunar Month's begun (leon's chinese bd!) so everyone pls go home early and be careful not to step on any ashes or stuff! hahaha im usually not so superstitious but rly, better be safe than sorry (:

okayy i go do yufong's pw survey now :D

bb everyone! (:

I love my classmates very much; they are the reason I'm still hanging on and dragging myself out of bed to go to sch each morning despite me wanting to pon sch to slp in really bad. (Wahh, run on sentence.)

I love how everything just gels into place. I love the little moments and jokes and laughter we share tgt! I love how everyone's so different and unique in their own rights, yet when this star-studded cast of 26 comes tgt, we form a lovely picture (:

Although everyone has been so wonderful to me and has contributed in their own special way to make 6V the awesome class it is, I rly wanna thank some of my closer buddies who have rly been there for me. Without you guys I really would not have made it this far.

Haojiemeis Tanlisyn and Phuayanqi (:
I don't know how this haojiemei thing started also, but you guys are rly so sweet and lovely and caring! (: Though tanlisyn's always teasing me about my fatness, she's the person I can rly go crazy with! HAHA :D I have srsly not met someone crazier than this lady. (: Yanqi is always stunning me with how innocent she is! (: but rly thankyou girls, I know I can count on you guys for anything (: AI NI MEN :D

EDIT: HAHAHAHAHA MOK JUST ALERTED ME TO THAT FACT THAT a lady (as i described tls) is defined:
–noun
1. a woman who is refined, polite, and well-spoken: She may be poor and have little education, but she's a real lady.
la·dy (lā'dē)
n. pl. la·dies

1. A well-mannered and considerate woman with high standards of proper behavior.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Other jiemeis: Reginaaaaaaa, corinaaaaaaa, beeebeee! :D
You guys are so comforting and sweet and AIYAH I GOT LIMITED VOCAB WTS! I JUST REALLY LOVE YOU GUYS, THANKYOU FOR ALWAYS BEING THERE FOR ME :D Thankyouuu regina and corina for helping keep that you know what a secret, and for always giving me advice and whatever! :D And beeeeebeeeee you always cheer everyone up with ur super positive attitude and your radiant smile! ;D LOVE YOU GUYS! :D

Haoxiongdi, ZHENYANG! :D
HAHAHAHAHAHA we're long lost siblings who like ASICS sports shoes(and have the same shoe size HAHA), like tongzi! THANKYOU for always being there to listen, and thankyou for trusting me enough to tell me stuff! (: You've rly been like a big brother to me (hahaha though I'm technically months younger! D:) and I know i can always trust you with stuff :D thanks for helping me keep that you know what a secret too :D:D:D:D:D *hugs!*

GREAT FRIEND AND PLATONIC LOVER, Mark and Leon :D
THANKYOU GUYS :D I think we've reached the point of nirvana alr. HAHA you guys know what i mean lah(: like we don't have to talk to one another to know what we're thinking of, we just KNOW (: we can not talk to one another for one whole day but somehow, we would feel we had (hahahahahaha okayyyy this is how i feel, but i hope its like tt for yall too). Thankyou guys (((: though yall like to suan me abt how sucky my chem is, I KNOW YOU GUYS ARE JUST TRYING TO PUSH ME ON :D so i will jiayou! :D you guys too k! (: and mc take care! hope your sore throat gets better soon ((:

HAOPENGYOUS, timothy, jinlong and tongzi! (:
THANKYOUUUU TIMMY (HAHAHAHAHA), longlong and tongzi! :D hahahahahaha you guys mean alot to me, even if you don't know it *winks*.
Thanks mothi for always being so lame (hahaha i only discovered ur lameness, not literally -oh btw take care of ur ankle- recently HAHA and you're a super fun guy to hang out with :D:D:DDDDD jiayouuu mugging okayyyy (: and tongzi! :D exercise buddy hahaha :D i know quite alot of people, but you're one of the most fit and muscular (if not the most) guys I know :D so yayyyy :D and jiayou too tongzi! :D thanks for the bread you gave me some time ago (on a rainy wed morning i think)! :D AND JINLONG :D HAHA BEST SISTER MAN :D thanks for trusting me, and I want you to know i trust you too :D I can always count on you ((((: xiexiexiexiexie :D

Annnnieee for her lovely cookies and pastries (((((: HEARTS YOU :D

HAHAHA OKAYYY if i didnt mention you its not cus i dont love you its cus my mum reminds me of my state of being grounded so i rly shouldnt be blogging i will continue this post soon! :D but either way i just wanna thank everybody who's been there for me, i rly love and appreciate you guys to the ends of the earth :D

JIAYOUUU :D

wheeee.

:D THIS IS AMAZING; 6V is the ultimate love (((((:

kudos to Annie and Dominic for the hard work (video editting and stuff) and REGINA (for the amazing photoshop job aka mugshots); and to 6V for your cooperation! :D

Why is my sister so unappreciative, unsupportive and vulgar?

Are Crescent girls all like that?

Okay, call me tree trunk leg, I don't rly mind, cus I know you're just trying to be honest - my leg rly like tree trunk. But even my own sister doesn't believe in me, how will I ever find the strength to believe in myself.

You're always taking me for granted. Asking me to do stuff for you, teaching you math, science, and everything. I got prelims and As you know. You think i got alot of time to whole day sit beside you and tutor you like paid tutors would? And you don't even care, you ask me to shut up.

And you're so freaking rude. Don't come and KNN and asshole and whatever fucking shit me lah, I learnt of all these words 4 yrs before you. Don't come demo to me ur immense vulgar vocab prowess lah cus i will beat you hands down. got time go and read the oxford dictionary.

grow up lah sister. you're not young alr. being taller than lisyn and yanqi doesn't mean anything if you don't have the maturity to go along with the height.

wake up ur idea.

i know i havent been the best sister also, but i do whatever i do for ur own good. rat on you to mama - if i don't then you'll continue lying to her abt the library thing. i tell you, you better study hard and get good grades. grades are what make a person - ok personality and morals too (but in this society, grades ALWAYS come first, honestly.)

JIAYOU LAH CLAY. i think after writing this post im not angry at you anymore. im more of worried and disappointed.

HAPPY 44th BIRTHDAY, SINGAPORE :D

Tonight, at 8.22pm, I stopped my chem mugging for awhile, and recited the National Day pledge (: Despite our kiasuism, and hot weather, and all that crapzxzxzx, I LOVE SINGAPORE (: You just gotta know where to look (:

Thanks for giving me such a lovely home the past 17 + yrs (: and continue to prosper! (:

woohoo tt aside, LEONNIE (MY PLATONIC LOVER'S) bd is coming up in 30 minutes time! :D Im not sure if i'll be online then, so here's wishing him an advanced happy 18th! :D

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY HOHOHOLEONYOON! :D

Thanks for being a fantastic and unconditional friend, and faithful confidante ((((((((: I (PLATONICALLY) LOVE YOU! :D

wheeee!

I don't remember the last time I cried like this.

I just buried my head in my Apollo pullover and the waterworks just took over. I guess it's just pent-up stress. Sometimes there's an emo side of me I'd rather just bury away, but it's really hard.

I ran running with the zy, zh, corina, feli, tim and beebee today! It felt really good just running, I could feel all that pressure and anger/stress and whatever negative emotion melt out of me. When I went home though, I just couldn't rly quite stand it alr. I'm rly rly rly stressed and it doesn't help that my mum has seen my BT2 results and I'm officially grounded till the end of Alvls which is like, forever. (i really can't depend on my yima to help me intercept letters, but thanks for trying! :/)

I have to start working really hard ): sometimes its tiring being the person who says jiayou all the time. Hahaha not that I don't mean it when I say it, I REALLY WANT ALL THE PEOPLE ARD ME TO SHINE, and rly JIAYOUUUU cus i know you guys can do it (: but i don't know if i can do it! ):

When was the last time someone told me to jiayou ): or told me, eh you look quite skinny today! or WHOA ur chem quite zai. hahahaha instead of the usual, fat hahahaha! etc etc altho i know you guys are just joking and it's all in the name of fun.

okay working hard will have to start with ending this post, and starting to do some work.

gdnight guys (: